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Well, I just hit a milestone
I'd like to think that
over the years, I've grown.

Positive perspectives
to my everyday life
and positive thoughts
has always been the objective.

My family has given me more
with a husband and kids
that I truly adore.

Friends who'd stuck with me
through thick and thin
and accepted my bullshit with a grin.

Sometimes, it's truly hard to just
grin and bear it
when everything seems much too difficult,
and I can't stand it.

But I try to wake up everyday with a smile
taking on the world head held high.
Because no matter what the world puts me through
I count on the fact that there'll always be you.

I love you all for what you've given me
but I hope you'll always know
that you can also count on me.

STATUS: Thankful
MUSIC to be thankful for: Ho Hey by The Lumineers

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A Thousand Miles a Minute

Racing thoughts,
eyes wide awake
and things sorted
up in my head.

It's four am
un-blinking
gritty eyes
emotions frayed.

I am happy.
I am contented.
So why can't I,
silence my head?

There are no feelings
buried deep.
There are no worries
preventing sleep.

All I have are these sheep
on a marathon running
a thousand miles a minute.

I picked up a book
chased by warm milk.
And still my eyes,
refused to quit.

The gun goes off
and there they go
sheep running circles
a thousand miles a minute.

Status: Restless and tired.
Music to lull me to sleep: Lullaby by The Cure

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Dirrrty Poet is Dirty

Scandalous words that make me blush
Blood in my head flow in a rush
But before I think about solitary magic
I'll use my fingers in a frantic
Just let me be and think for a minute
my words are sex and I'm fine with it.

I'm perfectly easy and perfectly fine
my words can be brash
and sometimes sublime
I say what I want, whenever I want
I'm not being mean
I can be nice but not in between.

Step into my world
of verses and words
where I indulge in drivel on board
I don't expect you to follow and heed
praises and patronizes I don't need
but perhaps you'd like a little taste
of my life vaguely in haze.

So come one, come all
I'd love to have you
listen to me, I'm not above you.
I want you prone or on your back
writhing in pain, mouths in slack
Perhaps I'm not getting any Closer
but maybe this video could be a fodder...

STATUS: Uneasy
Music to Burn: Closer by Nine Inch Nails

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